Unrequited Love
"Hello…?"I had just been woken up from a deep slumber by the untimely ring of my cellphone.I rubbed my eyes and stared in disbelief upon hearing the voice on the other end of the line.I met him by chance.Never mind that he didn’t look like the kind of guy I would hang out with because the fact was we were able to get along quite well-in an unexpected way."I need to talk to you.Can we meet in the park in a half hour?"."Yeah.Sure,"I responded,trying to be casual.
He was already there when I reached.Little did I know I was about to hear him confess his undying passion for me."So,you are seeing someone?,"he asked abruptly.Taken by surprise,I wait a moment to let the question sink in."Umm…I think,"I slowly replied."He don’t deserve you.Because I like you.I like you alot,"he continued.I turned away.I was confused than ever.I did hear rumours that we’re a couple but that was not the opening I had anticipated.
What had just happened?I stared at him,shocked.I was speechless for a long minute,my mouth attempting to form denials that wouldn’t make it past my throat.I tried choosing my words carefully.Crushed.I knew I had to leave.I had to get out of there.I had to escape.I had break his heart.I looked back at his eyes.They looked hurt.My entire body felt like it was shriveling up in embarrassment.I tried to change the topic to more light-hearted chit chat but I was too occupied trying to be a good conversationnalist.I requested to leave.
Things were never the same again.After some thoughts,perhaps it was partly my fault.Maybe I had said something or done something that he misunderstood me.I avoided him since then.Hurting him for once was more then enough.I sort of lost a friend but it would be alright.We’ll have a friendship again when he is ready.
If you’re reading this,I’m sorry.You cannot make someone love you,you can only make yourself someone who can be loved.If it was suppose to feel good,they wouldn’t have call it a crush.
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"For in its innermost depths youth is lonelier than old age."Is it true that grownups have a more difficult time here than we do?No.I know it isn’t.Older people have formed their opinions in their olden days.And they don’t change their ‘rules and regulations’ according to our teenage needs.It’s twice as hard for us young ones to holds our ground and maintain our opinions especially in a time when all our ideas are being shattered and destroyed thier famous line-"No way!".Adults says that we shouldn’t trust people easily because people are showing their worst sides.Then what about my instincts?I do not know whether to believe in truth,right or God.
Anyone who claims that the older ones have a more difficult time here certainly does not realize to what extent our problems weigh down on us.Problems for which we have no ideas about that will befall upon us.Problems for which we are probably much too young to handle.We have deadlines to meet.We have to work hard enough to meet up with our parent’s expectation on us.Examinations always never fails to crush us to pieces.Small matters keet adding up and become big matters even before we are able to execute any of them.These problems thrust themselves upon us continually until after a long time,we think we’ve found a solution but it doesn’t seem able to resist the facts which reduce it to NOTHING again.
Why is life treating me this way?I thought home was supposed to be home sweet home.But everytime there is a war in the house,I just wanted to disappear into the thin air.I often thought about where had life brought me to.Thank God I never come to an extent of me hurting myself.If I wasn’t strong enough to stand on my grounds,I would have been a bad egg long time ago.
Right now,a poem entitled Life’s Brief Candle written by none other then William Shakespeare is lingering in my mind.
To-morrow,to-morrow, and to-morrow,Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,To the last syllable of recorded time,And all our yesterdays have lighted fools,The way to dusty death.Out,out,brief candle!Life’s but a walking shadow,A poor player,That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,And then is heard no more.It is a tale told by an idiot,Full of sound and fury,Signifiying nothing.
If one day I’m gone,will people around me feel the lost of me?What are my friend’s last word to me?Do they know that I really care?To think about it blurred my vision.However I’m fortunate to have people loving me-my family,my friends,him and my Guardian Angel in Heaven.Without realizing,time really flies.In just about less then two weeks time,year 2007 is ushering in.So far I don’t really thought of any new year’s resolution yet.Although I’m looking forward for the new year but sumhow I couldn’t deny that I’m also fearful for what’s awaiting me at the door step.Perhaps my new year’s resoluiotn will be living a better life-happy,healthy,excel in my studies,etc.
With this I hope everyone will be having a blissful life with their loved ones.I’ll take this opportunity to wish everyone "MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!"
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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person,we will know how to be grateful for that gift.When the door of happiness closes,another opens,but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,never say a word and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.Friends are those people that make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down.
It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it,but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they’ll love you back!Don’t expect love in return;just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn’t,be content it grew in yours.It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,an hour to like someone,and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.Love begins with a smile,grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.
Don’t go for looks;they can deceive.Don’t go for wealth;even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.Find the ones that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream,go where you want to go,be what you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything.They just make the most of everything that comes along their way.When you were born,you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.Live your life so that when you die,you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
This is merely just a message that I want to share with people who mean something to me,to those who have touched my life in one way or another and to those I want to let them know that I appreciate their friendship.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong,enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy!!…Best of Luck In Life!
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